Lost and Alone… Needing Some advice…

I am a survivor of all forms of abuse started at age 5 followed me into adulthood, 2 abusive relationships to be exact. I have a husband who treats me very well. Our family dynamic is calm never violent. My daughter has been to several therapists which my husband and I participated in, has admitted to previous  therapists she needs chaos to be happy. Apologies and promises out the wazzoo, good for 2-3 weeks, it is at that time you can feel the tension in the air within a week she has become explosive, Yes I have tried ignoring, it just makes it worse.

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I feel I’m the only person in the world with this problem, It’s so isolating and lonely, the guilt, fear, anxiety that goes with being abused by your own child. I feel like the confusion is driving me crazy. How I see myself is opposite to the verbal and psychological abuse I suffer from my child. I am so hurt and feel like I want out…

My daughter is emotionally, mentally, physically, and verbally abusive towards me also with her stepdad and older siblings on a regular basis. Since October of 2011 she has assaulted me 5 times been arrested 3 times and placed in 6 behavioral facilities being discharged from the latest one January 7 of this year.

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We have tried everything possible but nothing works. Since April 2011 she’s had 4 or 5 assault and battery charges, placed in six different facilities, discharged January 7th from the latest one. Barely home two months before she assaulted me on the 18th of February.

I’m constantly living in fear, terrified of being her punching-bag again or that she’ll carry out her threat of killing me, I’m refusing to be her punching bag which is why I told juvenile affairs I was not allowing her back into my home. Authorities then informed me if I intend to follow through by not letting her back into the house I could be charged with abandonment.

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I have called lawyers, each one expressing how they would love to help me but since she is a minor, (her birthday isn’t until March 9 she will then be 17), I am legally responsible for her, her dad is refusing to let her live at his house for fear she will upset the home environment there and I honestly can’t blame him. Yesterday the sheriff presented me a subpoena. Court is on the 21 of March, I guess court will determine her outcome, I’m frantic she will come back to my house.

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I have no idea what legal stand point I have, her hatred and cruelty is nonstop, we have supported her in every way possible but we’re told we never do anything for her. It’s not like a relationship where you can leave. It’s ridiculous! There is no respect and I don’t understand any of it.

My constant struggle not just daily, but hourly has become truly unbearable. My only escape is to lock myself in my bedroom.

I’m at the end and just can’t keep this awful throbbing and debilitating pain inside

It’s killing me I can physically feel myself dying inside…

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How can I end this? There are safety nets plus programs out there for children, men and women who are being abused, but nothing out there that protects parents from their child abuser.

P.S. Thank you all in advance for your help

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Weekly Photo Challenge: Lost in the Details Buffalo Bill

Weekly Photo Challenge: Lost in the Details Lost in the Details. This challenge is about getting lost in the details. SHARE A PHOTO THAT MEANS LOST IN THE DETAILS TO YOU!

 

Charlie Norton’s Buffalo Bill Bronze Sculpture, Oakley Kansas

Massive Buffalo                                                         Buffalo Bill Statue

The Buffalo Bill Bronze Sculpture is one of the 8 Wonders of Kansas Art because it is a monumental work of art meticulously created by Kansan sculptor Charlie Norton and his wife Pat and is the largest of its kind anywhere in the world.

The sculpture memorializes a legendary event that took place in Logan County in 1868 whereby William F. Cody won the title of “Buffalo Bill.” This event therefore made Logan County, Kansas   “The Birthplace of the Legend, Buffalo Bill.”

 

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                                      ABOUT THE SCULPTURE

The magnificently executed Buffalo Bill Bronze Sculpture on U.S. 83 at Oakley consists of Buffalo Bill Cody on his favorite buffalo running horse, Brigham with his buffalo rifle, Lucretia taking aim at a buffalo as they both race across the prairie. This monumental bronze is greater than two times life-sized and weighs over 9,000 pounds.The Monumental Buffalo Bill Sculpture is historically correct in every detail from the Springfield Rifle that he used, to the saddle that he is riding and the handgun at his side. Buffalo Bill’s horse Brigham was a mustang that originated in the desert of Utah. For authenticity Charlie used a mustang   from a reservation in nearby Arizona for his model.

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Buffalo Bill Statue

The buffalo in the sculpture is a large bull without peer. It is accurate in every detail as Charlie is intimately familiar with the buffalo as he has made them a lifetime study. Charlie has also helped harvest and butcher innumerable buffalo as Buffalo Bill and his crew did out on the plains.

 

                           Legend

 

 

 

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Weekly Photo Challenge:Lost in the Details

                       SHARE A PHOTO THAT MEANS LOST IN THE DETAILS TO YOU!

My husband along with his colleagues took pictures of what they were seeing with their naked eyes. Once stateside he proudly shared these photos with me. Photographs mixed together with individual keepsakes had quickly filled a Tupperware container near max capacity.

Becoming Lost in Detail happens frequently while I’m sorting through past deployment photos.

January Deployment 2011 sent my hubby and crew to Marmara Turkey, Dubai, Lisbon Portugal just to name a few.

I’ve chosen photos from Lisbon Portugal

           

                                                        Along the Avenida de Liberdade

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There are at least two faces in this photo.

I believe the first one to be very obvious, Look dead center of the tree, You will see an eye, a large dodo nose, directly below is the open mouth.

Second one is sitting right on top of the first. On the bottom right side there is what appears to be a leg bent outward from the tree base.

Fountain Decorated by 4 Dolphins and Covered by a Cupola

                                                                               

    

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Enchanting Fountain decorated by 4 Dolphins and Covered by a Cupola. Atop Four Pillars Surrounded by Trees with Lovely Lilac Flowers.