Opportunities aren’t around for every tomorrow.

I have such fond memories of my brother-in-law Clinton, who I had known for the last 20 years.  The very first time I met him, he made me laugh at my expense.

When my husband and I would come home on leave, we had drove for 18+ hours, though we were tired at night when everyone in the family would go to sleep, my brother-in-law, husband, my children and I would stay up ALL NIGHT and play his favorite games with him.

 He knew everything about anything, the pros and cons on every item or subject. He could transform any day into a magical story.  He had the gift of changing his voice into a variety of accents,  Yes, Clinton had a lot of great qualities, but perhaps his most endearing quality was his ability to get people to open up.  He made me feel comfortable enough to share my darkest secrets with him, and in addition to great advice, he gave me the confidence to choose the road less traveled and reminded me that no matter what, I will be okay.  I’ll always remember his advice.  He left a mark on every single person who met him. Unfortunately his life wasn’t long enough for us to see how far his excellence would have taken him.

My regrets are not being able to say goodbye, assuming he’d always be here, not spending more time with him & not being there when he died.

Clinton was very young, only 32 yrs old. He had always been a very healthy person, hardly ever even had a cold. He had been suffering with a bad headache for a few days before his death. He described it as a “killer” headache and commented that he was trying to keep his head from “exploding”.
On Sunday afternoon, a call of concern was placed, he was not answering his phone or his door and his vehicles were parked in the driveway and the door was locked. My sister-n-law went to his house to check on him and found him. He had been gone for about three days. We still do not know cause of death. But we are sure it had something to do with his headaches.

Life can change in the blink of an eye, the sooner we can all learn to live in the moment, and live our life in a way it was intended to be lived, one with purpose and one with love.  For now, do things that make you happy, love, give back, figure out your purpose, and enjoy the journey because the show must go on, I know Clinton would not have wanted it any other way.

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Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don’t just say
And nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters

So close no matter how far
Couldn’t be much more from the heart
Forever trust in who we are
And nothing else matters

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Clinton Andrew Ellis

April 3, 1981 – January 2, 2014

“The smartest man I’ve ever met”

A cherished son, brother, Uncle and friend.

Forever in our hearts and always on our mind.

You will be dearly missed!!!

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Libby, Our Loyal Labrador

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Loyalty can be defined as faith and trust in someone

Loyalty is defined through tender acts of being there even when sometimes you don’t want to be

Loyalty is when you expose yourself to being vulnerable in an attempt to help someone you love.

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Loyalty is when someone will protect you from harm and keep you out of danger or trouble whenever they have the opportunity to do so.

There are so many nuances to the idea of what a loyal friend should be, but ultimately, a truly loyal friend has your back always and tries their best never to let you down.

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601497_10200590533828866_1083299601_nLibby has been with us through some great times and some really tough times. There have been times that I don’t know what I would have done without the quiet support and devotion of Libby.

Beginning of summer we noticed Libby had started drinking like a fiend, she would lick the water bowl dry and then was peeing constantly and having many accidents in the house. This past weekend she was real sick, threw up dark brown stuff, she also lost about 10 lbs, was VERY lethargic and just had a very sad look. She definitely was NOT acting like our Libby! Upon taking her to the vet we discovered she was in diabetic ketoacidosis

Libby has been diagnosed with diabetes. I was unaware diabetes also affects dog’s. This past week Libby has been very sick, we’ve seen the vet twice daily to check her blood sugar. She’s given 2 40 units of insulin shots daily, until our vet works out the right dosage. Her blood sugar was down to 270 today, after being 470+ earlier in the week. Trading in her Iams for Hill’s Prescription Diet w/d Low Fat-Glucose Management and make sure that we are consistent with giving her food around the same time every day (7:30 am and 5:30 pm) and then her shot shortly after (within 1/2 hour).

Libby (Ellis’s Lady Liberty II) is our 9-year-old Black Lab and a beloved family member. She completes our family. She’s loving, reliable, willing, patient, smart and protective. I never thought my beloved Black Labrador would get lodged in every corner of my heart the way she has. I can only hope because of her diabetes no other health issues ensue.

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Animals have an unconditional love. They do not care how rich, poor, pretty, ugly, thin or fat we are. They just know that we give them love, and they return it. They have the ability to love and accept us humans unconditionally. They are never ashamed of us, they never stab us in the back, and they are there for us in the biggest time of need.

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There are people that seem to think dogs are nothing but objects. A dog is more than an object. I feel dogs have souls and can become the most important beings in some of our lives. Dogs may not have “human” emotions, but the ones they do have are incredible!

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Blind

I was young but I wasn’t naive

 I watched, helpless, as he turned around to leave

 And still I have the pain I have to carry

 A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

I would fall asleep

Only in hopes of dreaming

That everything would be like it was before

But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting

They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time

 I never thought we’d be here

 Never thought we’d be here

 When my love for you was blind

 But I couldn’t make you see it

 Couldn’t make you see it

 That I loved you more than you’ll ever know

 A part of me died when I let you go

After all this while

Would you ever want to leave it?

Maybe you could not believe it

That my love for you was blind

 But I couldn’t make you see it

 Couldn’t make you see

 That I loved you more than you will ever know

 A part of me died when I let you go

 And I loved you more than you’ll ever know